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All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.
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Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.
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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
xx 10:48 PM xx
My attitude has changed so much it's unbelievable. I'm so different now.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
xx 1:17 PM xx
I don't want to cry every night.
xx 12:27 AM xx
FUCK! I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, August 26, 2005
xx 12:51 PM xx
TAMADE! I lay in bed last night and counted................... I ONLY HAVE 3 MORE WEEKS! Wei... You people better treat me nice hor.. "Who knows you may not see me for the rest of your lives after I leave!
BIG HUGGIESSS
Thursday, August 25, 2005
xx 2:30 PM xx
TAMADEEEEE!!! I MISS 19s SO MUCH! I MISS THE BRIDGES! THE MATCHES! WATCHING OUT FOR XIAODE FROM MINT! THE BORING BRIEFINGS WHICH WE TAKE TURNS TO FALL ASLEEP! ASKING LINGLING WHO TO BATHE FIRST! HOT COLD POOL! FROSTIES & HONEY STARS! SOFT TOYS! PATTING XIAN TO SLEEP! LOOKING LIKE A CHINA WOMAN/ PINGPONG PLAYER/ INSECT/ CLOWN/ VANESS WU/ KEN CHU AND GETTING TEASED AT!
aiya.. don't know la.. =(((
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
xx 1:56 PM xx
ARGH!la! My damn post was deleted! I'm not even in the mood to begin with!!!!!!!!!!!!mdk;
xx 1:29 PM xx
Ok. My second time.
We had Asean competitions last week and was it a blast! Ain't really concerned about the results of the games just really extremely upset about the separation of the team.
(Damn it. Can't believe I'm writing this again! I can't remember!!!)
On Friday night's debrief, everyone cried but me. I was feeling sad like everyone was but there just ain't any tears. It was really... SAD!!! But I was a bit numb. Didn't cry probably because every year from U14s in sec 1 to U17s and 19s in sec 3, separation means separation. We hardly keep in touch after that. I don't even remember my then teammates. What more this year? As much as I want the team to be in contact forever how much of it will come true? I wish I could relive the moments again. Really devastated over that possibel fact. Probably also because I'm leaving and all. Already I feel quite un-missed and unimportant in the team (don't think I was close to everyone sadly), the physical distance is going to make it worse. I just don't know what to feel.
This Asean youth games was really a gerat experience for me. My confidence got shot down rapidly in that week. All along I've been on top in any team I've been in, besides this year's AC's team. I was a reserve in the Asean team (Xian's going to kill me for this). I guess I have to face the fact that noone can be on top all the time. God's showing me that. I've accomplished quite a bit these few years and have been someone out there. From one of the best players to a substitute. I HAVE to go through the some low times. I can't always be on top even in Netball, something I'm best at. I accept that fact. I can't always be on top. I accept. I accept.
Reena's the only one who can overcome and bring Aruna down. And I'm unbelievably proud of my neh neh buddy. Take care of that knee honey. Keep me updated on it, I'm worried for you. I'm sorry team. Sorry I couldn't keep Reena's work up. Sorry I didn't stop Aruna and break the momentum and just simply stood there like a damn clown. I'm just so.. sorry.
For now, I hope we'll keep in touch guys. Asean Youth Team, Under 19s 2005, disbanded on the 20th of August. However, bonds remain forever.
WELL! Back home. Missed my gf, Chare and my classmates! Chare said I lost weight!! HEee. Fang's a great Hockey goalkeeper now! Was elated to see my classmates yesterday.Hugs miss them already. YUp. I've stopped school. Just slacking at home and watching time pass. Might doing some work in my dad's office though.
It has been changed.
18th September, a Sunday evening.
Sufficient time to pack. Clear up things with people. Say goodbyes to friends and teachers. Time for a new start and let go some of the past. But some things I won't let go. Especially you.
HUGS everyone.
Friday, August 12, 2005
xx 2:19 PM xx
Hey all. Hmm.. These days have been quite bad. Just about a month left here with friends. It really has been difficult. Cry about it often. But what's decided is decided.
19th September
I'll blog on the exact time and flight again for friends who wanna send me off. It's a monday, should be evening. If there's any form of inconvenience I understand if u can't make it. It's a school day after all.
Do me a favour close friends, just be happy. For now please.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
xx 7:28 PM xx
RED!!!! Harhar get it? hello.. yellow... red?! Muahaaaa....
just popping by.
Tata sexy honeys.
