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All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.
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Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.
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Monday, January 30, 2006
xx 8:48 PM xx
I wanna be home on Valentine's Day. Boo hoo. I love that day man.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
xx 4:26 PM xx
Noone's wiling to listen. I know. People just try to be nice and be there for u. But in actual fact, they hardly care. I don't want to risk seeing their selfishness therefore, I always keep my mouth shut.
I can't pour my shit on one or two people all the time. They can't take it even though they love me. They stop sooner or later. I don't want to face my loved ones givin up on me. The truth is everyone has their own damn problems anyway.
The only person IS GOD. But, I hardly believe in you anymore, God. Sorry.
Thank goodness for blogger.. If you're sick of me lamenting, just click on the X button on top. Damn easy. I don't even have to face any irritation on ur face or anything. This is great. HAH
sigh.. I just don't stop sighing. Going to sigh my last breath soon. Where's that hope I seek so so desperately.
xx 4:18 PM xx
Life is meaningless. I woke up to that. Can't accept the fact that we're going to die anyway. What's the damn point of living then? Goodness.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
xx 10:47 PM xx
OH MY GOD. SAVE ME.
xx 10:47 PM xx
Chinese New Year eve night. I'm home alone. None of my friends here is alone. Just me. It's ok. I'll make it through another happy occasion.
Friday, January 27, 2006
xx 2:40 PM xx
FANG DIED.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
xx 1:39 PM xx
FANG! HAHA! That's us! You're the one with the short hair. Don't you think i'm a good kisser? Slurp. =P
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
xx 8:56 PM xx
Tries hard to smile...........
Stop breaking, heart. Just stop. Stop beating in fact.
I'm just so.. torn apart.. Again.
xx 11:56 AM xx
I wish I could fill my blog with AC's photos. Lots of them. All the time.
I still miss AC the same.
xx 11:49 AM xx
I don't know. I'm ony 17. But I'm just so sick of life. I think I found a way to relieve.
xx 11:44 AM xx
I don't understand how life works. IT so confusing. Life is simple you know. It's just the people. Seriously. Selfish. Just being selfish.
Sometimes I do wish God made us as robots.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
xx 4:35 AM xx
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO BLOODY SENSE OF FAIRNESS!!!!!!! FUCK THE FUCKING HELL OFF U FUCKAS! DUN TRY RUINING US.. FAILURES. U WILL NEVER FUCK SUCCEED, NOT EVEN RIGHTEOUS TO BEGIN WITH. AND U HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO FAITH IN URSELF. THT'S WHERE U DIE. THT'S WHERE U TRULY DIE. ADEIOS!!! BYEEEE CYA FAILURES. HAHA!
this is life. u dare pull me or my loved ones down, u're dead.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
xx 3:42 PM xx
Netball NETBALL NETBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOBS.
Friday, January 20, 2006
xx 2:49 PM xx
Ladeeda. Can't believe it's 2006. Oh, another dateless Valentine's Day. Haha. If I have one here, smeone would kill me. eh? Hee.
Slacking in school. Yawns.
Got back my results for HOI(History of Ideas) and Lit. 16/20 and 16.5/20 respectively. Ok la. Can't expect much, can't write essays for goodnesss sake. Rather do a hundred Math questions. Haha.
So my top 4 average is 88%. Just enough to get into Commerce in Uni, 87%. Haha. But ain't the end of the journey yet. 2 more exams. Big sigh.
Ladeeda. Another week has pass, bringing me closer to home. Whoot!
Monday, January 16, 2006
xx 11:23 PM xx
I think I've been quite weird nowadays. Feel different, talk and behave different. haha. Weird moments. Aiya. Don't know what I'm upset with. Just ain't very happy recently. (As usual)
ok these are my results. They ain't great la. Pretty average I gues. I mean if you get this type of results in SG it's sky high.. But it's different here.
Chem: 84.7%
Math1: 98%
Math2: 86%
EAP, some English shit: 14.36/20 (What the heck?)
HOI: Pending
LIT: Pending
Haha. Outta these 5, excluding EAP, I need to take the average of the top 4. Has to be 87% and above for a guaranteed spot in Melb U. Mininum 80%.
Ladeeda. My chest's really burnt from beaching 2 days back. Ouchie.
I STILL wanna be home.
Heartache. Xian went hospital after falling down some steps. But she's ok, so i'm pretty relieved. Goodness. If anything serious were to happen.....
Fang: heart to heart talk eh? Good progress! Heh. Take care of urself and my baby. wo ai ni.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
xx 10:39 PM xx
This was taken in Sakae, Siloso beach. Me and babyhow. Sweet. Heh
Us gals.
Ulynn took this shot of our backs. Candid man. I was adjusting my bikini. Heh.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
xx 11:37 PM xx
More than twelve weeks more to home.
to passerby: it was so difficult toleave everything behind. It's hard to accept the fact that things come and go. Friends come and go. U get this a lot. But I only truly experienced it after I came here. Friends whom I really wanted to have forever, friends whom I want to be close to. They just ain't meant to be. To me, especially, everything's one sided. Sometimes you just feel so damn low cause the ple u wanna be close to just ain't interested in the same thing. Poof. It's gone, just like that. Bt those who are meant to stay, will.
As for Netball. Not playing in the national team ain't much of a big deal. To me, I have a greater sense of belonging to school. I'm never going to get over the fact that I threw the opportunity of playin for AC in the second year. Especially when you're needed by the team as well. It ain't just letting urself down, but the team and school. This year is a difficult year for AC. But I figure that faith can bring you a long way. I have faith in my team. I still wish I can play. There is a possibility cause nothing is impossible after all. Though I don't see any visible way for me to enter AC again and play for the last time for a school, I know there's a dimmed path that can lead me to it. I just need God so much to help me find that path and lead me through it. I just need that help. I know it seems just soo impossible as the season clashes directly with my final exams. But there is a way. I may be in denial. But really, nothing's impossible. God help. Please.
As for the national team. I never had that much loyalty to singapore. I mean of course it's glorious and all to be a national player. But I don't miss it cause I know I can play again for singapore when i get back considering I improve my skills in Australia.
Dear passerby. Don't give up. It's tough I know. But as cliche as it sounds, I truly believe that anything and everything is possible. I'm not saying I think you're bad or anything. I mean I don't even know you. Haha. I'm saying, you do have what it takes. Just take some thinking and time to bring it out. Faith. Like you, I'm a sportsperson too. I know the feeling of not succeeding. All the best. =) If you keep trying, you're shining. Let me know when your light is finally seen.
School has been alright. I just wanna be home.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
xx 6:30 PM xx
<3 <3 <3
Sunday, January 08, 2006
xx 7:09 PM xx
WHATTHEFUCK!!
xx 3:32 PM xx
Wow! It's been what 2 week? Went back to SG 2 weeks ago and MAN it was great. Met all my dahlinks. Went to school and all. Miss netball like fucka lot man. Walao. Can't play.. Still hope there's some way. Though not logically possible, miraculously yes. Pure sadness. Thought of so many ways to play, but just cant. Jia you AC!
Well, back here in Melbourne. Missed my babes here tons. That's probably why I didn't cry on the way here. Well, they went for lunchie w/o me.. haha cuz the pig was sleeping in. Bloody la. school tomorrow man. Like wtf right? haha.
3 more months of school, 2 weeks of home air, 1 month of school, 1.5 months of HOME!
i don't need the world. I just need you 2
