All our lives we search for someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance the song of heartbreak and hope all the while,wondering if somewhere,somehow there is someone searching for us.
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Dance as though no one is watching you. Love as though you have never been hurt before. Sing as though no one can hear you. Live as though heaven is on earth.
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Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.
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Saturday, July 29, 2006
xx 9:58 PM xx
you can have.. what's left of me.
just ate the best donuts here. krispy kreme. mmmmmm. well.. i'm quite sleepy. don't know how to conclude today. i shan't talk about it la. really damn damn sick of this feeling. i miss everything happy..
xx 1:34 AM xx
There are things I'm really confused about. i can't say what they are here. but gerry has been really down nowadays. i went clubbing yest. gosh.. i dunno la. it was fun man.. but i felt guilty cuz my 2 babies were so worried about me. pout.well.. anyway... the music could hav been beter la.. oh wells.. i think i was too high.. this is the worse i got.. gosh... i was dying..aha
yay.. i had 3 lectures in a row this afternoon! 1hr each. n i didn't sleeeppp!!!!! unbelievable. heh
i'm looking forward to tomorrow. donuts hunting, probably a movie, nice DINNER and poker night. hahaaaaa i love this freedom.. but mummy coming back soon! hahaa good also la
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
xx 10:09 PM xx
US in the airport before i left for melb. i miss u mom!
she took this when i walked thru immigration. with BABY in my arm. wa. my hair quite wavy hor.hha!
yeaapp.. it was a few hours before fang left. look at fang's blog.. more pics w/ more ple! n my gf is quite good looking sia!
xx 1:31 PM xx
This is life threatening. The rate i'm gaining fats is RAPID. YAy i'm happy cause i received a reply from MUNC (melb uni netball club). there are like different levels n i think i'm joining grade B. well, there're grade A,B,C, premier league and mixedteam. so yea.. guess B is like the average standard or something. A n premier league r of course for the pros la. while C's for those who just started or have had a long break. mixed team is self-explanatory. so wat i gotta do now is wait to be contacted la.
alrrriiight.. i love my sch timetable. i have 12hrs a week. i'm doing things i dun even know about. there's accounting reports n analysis, managing people and organisation, quantitative methods 1 and introductory microeconomics. i have absolutely no idea what each subject means. wellll.... there's always a start.
going clubbing tomorrow at hush. hmm.. very mixed feelings. wanna have fun.. but not sure if i'll be too bothered. come on, gerry.
anyway, hope u 2 get better. watever that happens.
xx 1:31 PM xx
This is life threatening. The rate i'm gaining fats is RAPID. YAy i'm happy cause i received a reply from MUNC (melb uni netball club). there are like different levels n i think i'm joining grade B. well, there're grade A,B,C, premier league and mixedteam. so yea.. guess B is like the average standard or something. A n premier league r of course for the pros la. while C's for those who just started or have had a long break. mixed team is self-explanatory. so wat i gotta do now is wait to be contacted la.
alrrriiight.. i love my sch timetable. i have 12hrs a week. i'm doing things i dun even know about. there's accounting reports n analysis, managing people and organisation, quantitative methods 1 and introductory microeconomics. i have absolutely no idea what each subject means. wellll.... there's always a start.
going clubbing tomorrow at hush. hmm.. very mixed feelings. wanna have fun.. but not sure if i'll be too bothered. come on, gerry.
anyway, hope u 2 get better. watever that happens.
Monday, July 24, 2006
xx 11:24 PM xx
its heart breakin 2 see u 2 like tht. the smiles. the touch. the tears. the pain. so so painful. the face. those eyes. lips. those hands. the hair. ur feet. ur heart. ur love.
let go. let go. poor u. poor her.
xx 10:54 PM xx
i dunno wat to type... aching.. wanted or not? want, dun want.
you're not meant to be. u guys just ain't. wat's this about waiting till you're both ready before splitting? is that your excuse? just to keep her? u two agreed that this will not last. why r u still hanging on to her? she wants to move on. but she's hurting anyway. she can't leave u cause u can't face ur big challenge without her. she knows u need her that's why she's hurt. she still loves u even though u 2 fight everyday. serious ones. n u r both tired. r u holding on just because of love? against all odds u loved each other. but the odds are just too overpowering. being separated by seas is not even one impt issue, can u imagine the worst? how can u initiate leaving her n beg of her to take u back after 10 min? the problem doesn't only lie with u because she's uncertain. she's confused with her feelings. she loves u.. but her love is not strong. she wants to leave u cause she wants her planned future. she doesn't want to disappoint anyone. she doesn't at all understand why u're living in a fairy tale. u try to make everything go ur way. n u think u're in love. but r u? u just fall for one to quick n u're too devoted. u dun want to feel lonely. tht's why. she's heartbroken too cause u're already neglected to begin w/. even by ur own useless bestfriend. n furthermore, u dun approach people or accept help. u think u can lean on this one person. how can she leave u when she's all u've got. even if she doesn't love u, she's considerate.
leave her alone. for now. she doesn't wanna talk to anyone. mayb it's time she got back in touch w/ the only one who truly gives unconditional love.
xx 8:54 PM xx
As expected, MY (disgraceful) university didn't apologise for their screwed up service. today just made me even more pissed. i arrived in melbourne early this morning n was ready to face the start of lessons. only later did i find out that we don't have tutorials on the first week of school. n we weren't told about it. so among those who wasted their time, i tiredly left school.
my school's reputation is good? HOW the heck?! service sucksssssss! i just hate it when people receive more than they deserve. my sch's not responsble at all, u know...
OK came back from adelaide this morning. had much fun over the weekend w/ fang. slept most of sat. went to town n walk abit. lunch n diner w/ fang n her uncle's family. sunday was more productive. we went to the beach and play frisbee. so fun. the weather was great man. not cold. sun shone on fang's bdae!
then yea. i'm back!
Saturday, July 22, 2006
xx 11:46 AM xx
ok.. i'm back after 5 minutes. wish i had more money.. so i dun feel guilty spending money n food n clubbing. it's not like my dad's unwilling to give. i just feel so bad to keep on taking n taking. sigh. i really needa start work.
xx 11:39 AM xx
yoooooooooooo.. Haha. I'm in adelaide now. hardly slept yesterday night and this morning. many reasons. yawwwn.. going to town soon. hope it's good.. going to try their wicked wings here.. just to compare w/ melb's.. haha bullshit.. i just wanna eat it. well. ladeeda.. i'm sleepy. shan,ul,shee n henry stayed over last night. i cooked mapo tofu n shan cooked cabbage w/ mushroom. man.. i ate like most of the tofu la.. it's damn nice.. sometimes i'm happy to be with people w/ small appetites. haha so i can finish up everything. but of course i feel damn sinful after that la.. eat like a monster man.. damn fat. hha
no motivation leh. how come?
Thursday, July 20, 2006
xx 8:58 PM xx
I swear man. Melb Uni's service sarks. I emailed them n asked them several questions bout uni. they answer by giving me links which obviously needed me to look it up myself. when i couldn't find the answer for some questions i emailed them again. then there was one last question they didn't answer. obviously i was pissed right? so in my third email, i said thanks for the help, however, one question hasn't been answered clearly.. why blahblah? why blahblah?.. then they reply n finally answered it la.. n last sentence was "i don't know how else i can explain to you".. tamade.. after i saw that i killed them man. my last email was like a complaint.haha
like.. wth? why can't u answer my questions STRAIGHT right from the start?! "don't know how else to explain"?? not like u even tried before that email! disgrace. one of the top unis but with such service.
my last email : Thanks so much. That explanation is absolutely comprehensible. There’s no need for further explanation. I hope you understand that answering queries by giving links to the Melbourne Uni website and requiring us to search for the answers ourselves isn’t very easy for us. That’s because we resort to emailing the school after being unable to find the answers ourselves. If Melbourne Uni is keen on accepting students, questions should be answered directly instead. I don’t think that’s too difficult. Sadly, it took me three emails before I could get the answer you last provided for the last question.
I hope you’ll take my opinions into consideration. This university is known to be one of the best and I hope it continues to be. Thank you for your time and help. You’ve definitely cleared all the confusions I had.
ARGH!! if they dare retaliate ar... BANG.. my last email wasn't that harsh.. well, to me, it could have been worse. and if i get sued for this entry ar... f them man. haha.. they shouldn't sue me if what i said was accurate n true.. all i said was what happened.
piss me off. oh ya.. i just collected my student card. laminated paper. cool la.. give u like $100 000 n u give me a laminated paper as my identity in the school. unbelievable. just unbelievable.. this point, everyone in the intake will agree. no doubt.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
xx 9:53 PM xx
School started. massive ponning man. hmm. wonder if guys get turned on when they hear people PONNING lesson. or going to PON lessons. gosh. i'm bored. haha
orientation is always so boring la. i just emailed melb uni netball club on my interest in joining. i saw their website.. those who go on competitions are all australians.. don't know if i can make it in. heard there was racial discrimination also. but if i don't join n maintain my skills, i doubt i can play for sg in the future. actually.. i dunno la.. as day passes, i think i can accept not representing sg. cuz i'm getting worse n fatter by day. bleach!
oh wells. just saw a lesbian scene in OC. i'm really so amused by such things. haha. i'm visiting fang this weekend in adelaide. it's her birthday. this is her first week away from home.. maybe a familiar face will cheer her up.
ladeeda.. i'm so glad i finished trinity. now i'm just waiting to get my driving license, get a part-time job and PARTY man. kinda.. whoo.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
xx 1:22 PM xx
Alrighty. Back to Melbourne. A new start. Wonder how uni is like. Hope fang's ok. Ilu gf!
Friday, July 07, 2006
xx 1:32 PM xx
ever feel there's nothing tobe happy about?
you changed.
the things u should be contented with, just ain't enough?
i hate the new u.
sometimes, melbourne is welcoming.
though it hurts to leave u. it hurts to be with u.
US in the airport before i left for melb. i miss u mom!
she took this when i walked thru immigration. with BABY in my arm. wa. my hair quite wavy hor.hha!